100

8 months and 3 weeks since surgery.   i have lost 100 pounds since my pre-op weight.  

things are definitely slowing down....4 pounds lost in the past 3 weeks.   i did take another mini-fill today because i feel like i am eating too much.  but i am also eating the wrong things.  i know it.  i was honest at the doctor today.  

what this comes down to is that i am realizing that it is time for me to stop riding the lap-band train and realize that this is where both the habits need to change IMMEDIATELY and that i have to start thinking like a dieter somewhat.  and that fucking sucks.  because i hate dieting.  i am a bad dieter.  and with dieting comes bad behaviors.   sneaking.  making silly food bargains with myself.  obsessing about the next meal.  and more that i just don't want to talk about here right now.  UGH.  

but whatever.  i lost 100 pounds.  la la la.