it took an email a plea for a visit from Babbling Amy ....an actual phone call from Electric Band Stephanie (the texting queen) ....AND an email from my first (and only) blog-girl crush, Amy W. (and i didn't even have to put on astronaut diapers.... ;-).....but i am back from the blog-dead...
honestly nothing but LIFE was keeping me away. i have thought so many times "i need to blog about this"...but then i would get busy with LIFE. i said my word this year would be LIFE / LIVING and that is exactly what i have been doing.... living life in my size 12s and medium shirts.... (and quite cutely, if i do say so myself....) i just ran across the street from my new office and took this picture in a consignment store dressing room....
here is the bullet- point update with details in subsequents posts this week (i promise).
- JOB -- i started my "dream job" in late march and it has been a challenge. good challenge -- but a challenge nonetheless....
- WEIGHT -- has kind of been like watching grass grow. i am down to 193. but things have shifted considerably and like i said i wear a size 12 most days and am mostly buying size medium shirts from wal-mart brand to michael kors. have lost a size and half in shoes, too.
- PRINCESS -- growing by the day. so mature. such a good kid.
- BODY IMAGE -- improving like you wouldn't believe. i finally am able to see what the mirror shows me. i see a very narrow person when i look in the mirror. i no longer see this imposing figure but instead a very shrunk version of someone i used to know. i am able to see the hanging skin for what it is...temporary and not "fat"...
- EATING DISORDER / THERAPY -- still working on these but committed to it. had a major breakthrough this week....
- PLASTIC SURGERY -- i have started to pay for my arm lift and breast lift which are scheduled for september 29.
- LOVE LIFE -- i am in love. this is for real. The One Who Got Away (TOWGA™) is officially back in my life for good. we had a two year break where we individually went through a lot but never lost sight of what could have been. it is so natural and good. i will definitely share more about this later...
back in february, for the princess' birthday, i got "live the life you imagined" tattoo'd on my foot in my own handwriting....and that is exactly what i have been doing...in order to do so i have had to take risks, consciously force myself to stop holding onto the past and learn how to make mistakes and survive. i am here.
