i accidentally stumbled onto my blog account while doing something work related through gmail. well -- fuck-a-duck. i now weigh 240 and am MISERABLE. i can not stop eating chocolate. that's it. and carbs. now i have said it. i live my life eating around my band. UGH.
shit, they even changed blogger on me.
i know blogging kept me accountable. i know that i was most successful when my life revolved around my lap band. now it doesn't.
the princess will be 10 in two weeks. she has had two major surgeries in the last year. neuro-brain surgery and neuro-spinal surgery. after the last surgery in november she lost her ability to walk. she can walk now because she is on major medication for her painful neuropathy that happened as a result of the surgery. she uses a walker or cane to get around.
my career is going real well. but i eat too much when i am stressed.
and i am engaged to my LOVE. my life partner. the one that once got away and is now not going anywhere.
she has also gain about 50 pounds since we have been back together.
wedding is in may. i have my dress. it fits but i want to lose 20 pounds so it flows....
no excuses. i eat too much chocolate and chips and carbs.
i need another "day 1". perhaps today?
I swear to God.. I was just thinking about you and wondering how you were doing. This whole weight loss thing is so hard and you stop giving it your all for one minute and all the sudden you have gained 50 lbs! I feel you pain, sorry for lifes trials, but so glad to hear from you again!
ReplyDeleteHi Anna! I hop you are doing well!
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