stuck

kind of just downloading random thoughts here.

so after sooooo many months of food, drinks, saliva, etc being stuck in my throat all the time i am not dealing with that.  instead i am dealing with a stuck scale.

it is soooooo frustrating.    226.  i go down to to 224.  223.  and then when i weigh in "officially" last thursday i am back at 226.  i was there this morning too, for example.

i know i need to exercise.   there is no time.  really.  

it is so frustrating.   i know i need some more fill.  but worried about getting to tight again.

i am also in job search mode.  two different positions i am actively pursuing.  position #1 is a c*ty m@nag%r position for a small town.   position #2 is an assist@nt c*ty m@nag%r position for a larger city.   i am officially a finalist for position #1.  have been interviewing with each elected official individually over the last week -- including this past weekend.  i have one more scheduled elected official interview to go.  thursday i will find out if i make it to the final cut.   tomorrow night i am attending a public meeting for position #2 to do my research.   that position has closed and i am awaiting the first interview call.  i have been doing a lot of visioning with this position.   for example the morning after i sent in my resume i said at 7:50AM that i expected a personal "thank you for your resume" email in "10 minutes" when the HR person fires up their computer.  needless to say that email came at 8:01 (11 minutes after i visioned it).  i'll take it.

this visioning stuff has to do with my weight loss issues.  and the word stuck.
 but i am so fricking tired right now and my eyes are closing so i will continue tomorrow.   hopefully.